Capistrano Swallows

She is like a butterfly, kind of shy
The Lady never beats about, she just sighs
All her men return to her, like Capistrano Swallows..

I was talking on the telephone with a girlfriend of mine this week.
As we chatted about this that and the other, she made a comment about a situation, saying
"it is like going back to an old boyfriend. Never a good idea".

She's right, I think to myself as my mind starts to play the reels of old boyfriends of
mine and if I could consider taking them back.. Which ones would I go back to.. what
am desperate enough to tolerate now that I could not tolerate then? What might not be "so bad" after all?

A better question, is why do they keep calling? After 3 months, one would figure that it is a done deal. But even years later, the calls come.
"How are you?"
"What are you up to?"
"Are you dating anyone?"
"You know I still love you, right? I have thought about you everyday."

Really?
Interesting.
The Lawyer has found God and truly understands, admits and regrets his life as an asshole.
"People can change" he says. Correcting himself, he states that he really has always known God, it was just revealed to him that his behavior is less than acceptable most of the time to most poeple. And now that he is moving to Texas, he figures this a good time to reconnect and let me know that I really am the one he wants to spend his remaining years with...

The Mystic says I just need to realize that I am not contributing what I should, as he is. That I am not open and I am judgmental. If only I understood and accepted things from his perspective things would improve. That although he say things that are hurtful or untrue, he does not mean them to be so, and if I would not project so much of my anger and judgment into what he says and writes, I would allow our love to grow....

The Bully says that he really only loses his temper every 27 years and I just happened to be present at the time. I really should just let it go because we could be so good together. I mean it was only a bar fight in which he attacked someone and attacked me as well. Come on..that wasn't so bad. "Are you going to make this hard on me? Are you going to make me beg?" he asks...

My friend may indeed be right. It is just never a good idea to return to something that was not good for you before. It is probably not good for you now.